One of the most brilliant men of the 20th century said that Insanity means "doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." -Albert Einstein
Ladies and gentlemen, I have come to realize that the Military is (even as a newbie) already driving me insane.
For example, with my husband being in A-School right now. He used a buddy's phone to call around noon on Tuesday. Elated to hear his voice, I couldn't wait to talk with him about what he's been doing, what I've been doing, along with the things that need to be talked about with our upcoming move. Instead, he let me know he only had a minute but wanted to say I love you and that the buddy was going to let him use their phone (he hadn't received his in the mail yet, but has calling cards anyway??) later that night. More of a heads-up, "be available" call, right?
I stayed up all night. Partly because I was excited for the phone call and he didn't say what time he would call. And partly because I just don't sleep when we're apart. I average 2-4 hours of sleep a night.
It hurt, but I understand how these things go, right? Part of my training as a military spouse, right? And then I remembered him saying that if I didn't hear from him that night that he would definitely call the following night. Nope. No call. No sleep. Not happy.
I can't blame Ben. I know the restrictions aren't the same as it was at boot camp, but there's still restrictions. I guess I just expected a call when he said he would, because that's a normal expectation outside of the military. [I heard that guffaw at the word "normal," seasoned MilSpouses!]
He did call earlier today, but it was for another "I can't talk right now, but I'm going to call you later tonight" conversation. I tried not to sound needy, but well, I am right now. I miss my best friend and love. He said they had a "phone lock down" which was why he couldn't call the night before, but promised it would be different tonight.
It's now after midnight. I've had my phone by my side all night. Even checked the ringer and volume to make sure I wasn't going to miss it, expecting a different result than the last two days. Nope.
Nothing, but insanity here.
UPDATE: Oh, the irony... one of the photoblogs I follow had this as today's post. HA!
I think it's time to share.
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My Ben has done the same thing to me the past couple of nights! It's hard and it sucks. I'm glad to know you're going through the same thing as me.
ReplyDeletethanks sarah for following my blog! I am now following you too!
ReplyDelete~annie
sorry just read your post... um, i HATE nights like that... My hubs is deployed too... I hate being so connected to the phone. Praying he calls reaaalllly sooonn!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh how I remember those calls. They were way worse during deployment, especially since I haven't had a cell since a month after we moved here...so if he said he was going to call I would drop all plans, not eat, not sleep only to find out the phones won't working or whatever else happens on the boat that kept me from hearing his voice.
ReplyDelete♥ SailorWifey
tell your husband not to say he is going to call back at a specific time cus unfortunately as much as he may want to call you back he doesn't call the shots at this time the military does.. during last deployment my husband would say he was going to call at a certain time and I would be crushed when he didnt.. so we decided not to have him do that anymore he called when could and that was all he could do
ReplyDeleteCalling can be so frustrating. So many times my husband said he would try to call and couldn't.
ReplyDeletei dont know how long hes been gone but i was like that when my hubby first left for iraq but after a few weeks he got into a regular schedule and i got to speak to him at normal times.
ReplyDeleteAs Stacie-Marie said, ask him to not tell you he is going to call you back that night. Just ask for him to say he will call you when he gets a chance. That way you don't stay up with your phone in your hand waiting for it to light up and you never get your call when he said he would.
ReplyDeleteoh how I wish I didn't know exactly what you were talking about.
ReplyDeleteHaha! I don't mean to laugh, but I'm giggling over here because I kind of want to copy and paste your blog into my blog, because it's almost exactly what I've been going through. It's so frustrating to feel like you're held hostage to your cell phone. I've been losing sleep, too, in case he calls and I'm too sleepy to hear the ring. Ugh. I hope you get to hear from him soon :)
ReplyDeleteI KNEW that blog hop would help me find people who understand! Thanks everyone! And I have to say that this is all just while he's in A-School, I can't even imagine what it'll be like at deployment! Y'all are some STRONG women!
ReplyDeleteStacie-Marie-I took your advice. We talked tonight and he started to say the "I'm going to call you _____" and I stopped him before he could say when. We said "talk to you soon" instead of times. My anxiousness is already lifted :)
I started following you before the Blog Hop but you are right, you'll get used to his.
ReplyDeleteMy husband is on a submarine. Recently, he called me and said it would most likely be his last phone call (they are going "dark" for a few months, which includes e-mail). About 10 seconds after he said that, he said, "Oh $hit, I've got to go."
Luckily, I got one more 2 minute phone call the next day, but it could very well have been my last without even being able to say goodbye.
Ah, how frustrating! Well I'm glad to know you came up with a workable solution.
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